University

Now Playing - Outside by Calvin Harris ft. Ellie Goulding

"You never know what's around the corner. It could be everything or it could be nothing.
You keep putting one foot in front of the other, then one day you look back and you've scaled a mountain."

It's official, I'm enrolling into university next year. After much considerations, I have finally made the move to enter Uni. Jobs these days require you to have at least a bachelor's degree and I will definitely need one if I want to pursue higher paying jobs. I will be still working though while studying part time. I hope I will be able to cope with working and studying at the same time and doesn't break me down meantime.

Speaking of which, time to enjoy my holidays once again before I start school next year. Time to visit Melaka again in 2 weeks.

MacRitchie Tree Top Walk

Now Playing - Superheros by The Script

Sunset @ MacRitchie Reservoir

Singapore is a small island country that houses more than 4 million people. Whenever we think of Singapore, we will always associate her with sophiscated tall buildings, state of the art expressways, the iconic "durian" Esplande and of course the awesome Marina Bay Sands. Despite having a abundance of shopping centres on the entire island, there isn't really much you can do here besides watching movies and eating good food.

There are actually still some interesting things left to do on Singapore and one of them is sightseeing. Singapore has quite a number of nature reserves and taking a walk at one of them will be an eye opener for many people, including myself. Recently one of my friend had asked me to visit MacRitchie Reservoir's Tree Top Walk. I had never heard of it before or know it exists before. It turned out to be an awesome trip though.

"The TreeTop Walk (TTW) is the highlight of several long hiking routes in MacRitchie that brings you through different stages of mature secondary forest. The first of its kind in Singapore and in the region, this free-standing suspension bridge connects the two highest points (Bukit Peirce and Bukit Kalang) in MacRitchie and offers a bird's eye view of the community of plants and animals that live in the forest canopy. The total length of the walkway is about 250m and its height from the forest floor varies, with the highest point at 25m."

The journey to the Tree Top Walk is around 5km and will take you about 1-2hours depending on your pace/speed. Nessa and I were just talking casually so it take us around 1.5 hours to reach the Ranger Station. Please do not give up even if it's tiring because the view up there is magnificent. 

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Ranger Station, the bridge is One Way Only.

Nessa takes the lead.

"Add filter and inspirational quotes here"

Quite scary if you look down.

Hot, please bring lots of water and proper shoes.

After the bridge it's another 2-3km walk to the Ranger Station. So please bring lots of water as you will really need it. Overall, the whole walk is worth the walk literally because you get the see lots of things that are not very common in Singapore and various exotic wildlife too. It's a pity that I didn't capture any picture of them though. 

I do hope to have more trips like this in the future.

Braces

Now Playing - Heart Made Up On You by R5

Oh boy, it had been so long since I've updated this blog. Laziness got the better of me and I tend to let my procrastinating habit kick in when I wanted to update the blog. Finally, it's time to write something here again. The importance of having a blog even if no one reads them is to having something to look back to in the future when I'm older. You can also tell that the way I type is so much different from 5 years ago. Who knows maybe in the future someone close to me may be reading this?

As I have mentioned before, I wanted to put braces. And I finally did 4 months ago. To think that I had finally got my ass up and did something I actually wanted, miracle. My dentist told me the whole journey may take around 2 years though, which means in another 1 year and 8 months my teeth is a free man ... or teeth again. I can't wait to see the vast difference by then. Although it's only the 4th month of my treatment, my teeth structure had already changed ALOT. Take a look at this.

3rd May 2014.

This is the hideous set of teeth that I had with me for the past 22 years. Oh wait it's not 22 years, more like 10-12 years actually (Quite obvious right?). Really, I had no idea how crooked my teeth are until I took this picture. Not even any one of my single tooth is actually upright and at the correct position. I wonder how I had survived eating with this set of horrible tools.

My current orthodontist is Dr Poon from My Braces Clinic. It's located at Orchard Road, Shaw House level 10. She's a very professional orthodontist and I'm glad to have visited her. I'm not using the traditional braces, instead I'm using a type of "Self Ligating Braces" called Damon Braces. It is said to be more efficient than normal braces because the brackets does not have to be tied down with rubber bands which induces friction. Not sure if it's true but I decided to go with it anyway since I've read positive certain reviews on it from various Singaporean blogs. It cost me around S$5,600 for the braces not inclusive of extractions and polishing/scaling. The extraction cost was around S$300 in total. It's actually quite cheap since I'm extracting SIX tooth, 2 molar and 4 premolar. Man, those few days after my extractions was the bomb, so painfully hungry.

21st August 2014.

Now my set of teeth is much better, and it will be better as time goes by. 2 years will pass by before I even know it and I really hope my realigned set of teeth can let me have more self confidence. It's quite a bummer not being able to smile widely because you know that your teeth are horrendous. Those days will be gone soon, those days...

Update

Will be updating this soon ....

Have not been updating for a long long time...

30 Things to Stop Doing to Yourself

Now Playing - Best Day Of My Life by American Authors

Bamf, it's already the last day of March. Time flies, and yes I always say that but isn't that the fact? Not sure why but as we grow older time seems to pass by ALOT faster. It's the end of the workyear today and I got a bonus again. When you work in a government sector, getting 3 to 4 bonuses per annum is the norm; It's quite a motivating factor to carry on your job. However, life does seem quite monotonous for me. 

You wake up, you eat, you work, you train, you sleep.

Still, the monetary rewards greatly suppress the monotonous, period. That may change in the future, who knows. Anyway, that's really all there's to this post. I did however found an interesting article about things we should stop doing to ourselves. I shall post them here to remind me of myself the next time I read my own blog and end my post here. Have a great day.

1. Stop spending time with the wrong people. – Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you.  If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you.  You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot.  Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth.  And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends.
2. Stop running from your problems. – Face them head on.  No, it won’t be easy.  There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them.  We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems.  That’s not how we’re made.  In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall.  Because that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time.  This is what ultimately molds us into the person we become.
3. Stop lying to yourself. – You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you can’t lie to yourself.  Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves.  Read The Road Less Traveled.
4. Stop putting your own needs on the back burner. – The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.  Yes, help others; but help yourself too.  If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.
5. Stop trying to be someone you’re not. – One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you likeeveryone else.  Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you.  Don’t change so people will like you.  Be yourself and the right people will love the real you.
6. Stop trying to hold onto the past. – You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one.
7. Stop being scared to make a mistake. – Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing.  Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success.  You end up regretting the things you did NOT do far more than the things you did.
8. Stop berating yourself for old mistakes. – We may love the wrong person and cry about the wrong things, but no matter how things go wrong, one thing is for sure, mistakes help us find the person and things that are right for us.  We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past.  But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future.  Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.
9. Stop trying to buy happiness. – Many of the things we desire are expensive.  But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free – love, laughter and working on our passions.
10. Stop exclusively looking to others for happiness. – If you’re not happy with who you are on the inside, you won’t be happy in a long-term relationship with anyone else either.  You have to create stability in your own life first before you can share it with someone else.  Read Stumbling on Happiness.
11. Stop being idle. – Don’t think too much or you’ll create a problem that wasn’t even there in the first place.  Evaluate situations and take decisive action.  You cannot change what you refuse to confront.  Making progress involves risk.  Period!  You can’t make it to second base with your foot on first.
12. Stop thinking you’re not ready. – Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises.  Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.
13. Stop getting involved in relationships for the wrong reasons. – Relationships must be chosen wisely.  It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company.  There’s no need to rush.  If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.
14. Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work. – In life you’ll realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet.  Some will test you, some will use you and some will teach you.  But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.
15. Stop trying to compete against everyone else. – Don’t worry about what others are doing better than you.  Concentrate on beating your own records every day.  Success is a battle between YOU and YOURSELF only.
16. Stop being jealous of others. – Jealousy is the art of counting someone else’s blessings instead of your own.  Ask yourself this:  “What’s something I have that everyone wants?”
17. Stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself. – Life’s curveballs are thrown for a reason – to shift your path in a direction that is meant for you.  You may not see or understand everything the moment it happens, and it may be tough.  But reflect back on those negative curveballs thrown at you in the past.  You’ll often see that eventually they led you to a better place, person, state of mind, or situation.  So smile!  Let everyone know that today you are a lot stronger than you were yesterday, and you will be.
18. Stop holding grudges. – Don’t live your life with hate in your heart.  You will end up hurting yourself more than the people you hate.  Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.”  It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.”  Forgiveness is the answer… let go, find peace, liberate yourself!  And remember, forgiveness is not just for other people, it’s for you too.  If you must, forgive yourself, move on and try to do better next time.
19. Stop letting others bring you down to their level. – Refuse to lower your standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs.
20. Stop wasting time explaining yourself to others. – Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it anyway.  Just do what you know in your heart is right.
21. Stop doing the same things over and over without taking a break. – The time to take a deep breath is when you don’t have time for it.  If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.  Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.
22. Stop overlooking the beauty of small moments. – Enjoy the little things, because one day you may look back and discover they were the big things.  The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.
23. Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done.  Read Getting Things Done.
24. Stop following the path of least resistance. – Life is not easy, especially when you plan on achieving something worthwhile.  Don’t take the easy way out.  Do something extraordinary.
25. Stop acting like everything is fine if it isn’t. – It’s okay to fall apart for a little while.  You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well.  You shouldn’t be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears.  The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.
26. Stop blaming others for your troubles. – The extent to which you can achieve your dreams depends on the extent to which you take responsibility for your life.  When you blame others for what you’re going through, you deny responsibility – you give others power over that part of your life.
27. Stop trying to be everything to everyone. – Doing so is impossible, and trying will only burn you out.  But making one person smile CAN change the world.  Maybe not the whole world, but their world.  So narrow your focus.
28. Stop worrying so much. – Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of its joy.  One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time?  Three years?  Five years?”  If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.
29. Stop focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen.  Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story.  If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.
30. Stop being ungrateful. – No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life.  Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs.  Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

Source: http://www.bspcn.com/2012/02/03/30-things-to-stop-doing-to-yourself/

PC Overhaul

Now Playing - Waiting For Superman by Daughtry

It's been quite a monotonous month and I've not much stuff to blog about lately. Things were just going on day by day, nothing unusual. I've been training hard for my IPPT this coming April and hope to maintain my silver by then. With that, I can carry on with my braces without worrying about needing to take IPPT again. 

Having said all of these, what's life if it's only all about work and no play right? Which is why I've decided to overhaul my 3 year old computer. Estimated to cost around $2000 this time round. I've wanted something special and thus I'm going with an all white build which is quite uncommon. However, the tough part is to find parts that are mostly white since majority of the components are black. After ample researching I have finally managed to build my own white PC.

Testing in progress...

A computer consists of several parts that are working together to get you the best experience possible. There are actually 7 important parts, and 6 not so important parts.

Motherboard 

Processor

Ram

Graphics Card

Power Supply

Casing

Storage Drives

Optical Drives

Monitor

Keyboard

Mouse

Speakers

Additional Fans

Overall, putting a computer together is a very interesting and fun process which takes some knowledge to be able to complete it. It's actually my hobby, and thus I enjoy every minute putting a computer together. However, it's quite an expensive hobby because I'm not going to buy and build so often, I don't need a new computer every week. Hence I started building computers for my friends if they want someone to suggest parts for their new computer.

And that's my end product, looks rather clean and nice. Total, I've spent about $2,235 for this new computer, with the most expensive part being the Graphics card, which costs $605. All that said, it's money well spent if I enjoy it. Hope this new computer will last me for around 3 to 4 years.

Everyone's Getting Married

Now Playing - 命運 by 家家 (Lan Ling Wang OST)

Working in a big company, you'll tend to get to know more people. When that happens, you'll get invited to more events. Most of my colleagues are young adults much like myself, age varies from around 20 to 35 years old. When people have a stable job, they will start to look for a partner. When they find the other half and after their feelings matures, it's time to start a family. 

Somehow a lot of people around me are getting married this year. It's only near the start of March and I'm going for a 2nd wedding dinner tomorrow. There should be at least 4 more wedding dinners to attend this year, making it a total of 6 just from my company. I hope this year will be good since there's so many auspicious events going on. With so many people getting married around me, I wonder when will it be my turn?

New Room

Recently my sister got into Meridian JC and she needs a room for herself now. She's been sleeping with my parents for quite awhile now. There's only 2 rooms usable in my house since the 3rd room is used up by my father for his stuff. In need of an extra room, my father took the 3rd room and split it into half with a partition wall. I will give my room to my sis and move the to smaller room since I like smaller rooms as it's much more cosy and easier to manage.

The theme for my new room will be green and white mainly. I asked my father to have the walls painted green and I went on ahead to get furniture that are mostly white. Most stuff are pretty much done and the only things left are planning of the positions of the furnitures. I hope that a change in room will make me more lucky in whatever I do.

Braces

I finally got my ass up and visited the orthodontist after such a long time. It's located inside of Shaw House at Orchard Road. After much discussion with the orthodontist about how f**ked up my teeth is, I've managed get a date to put on the braces, which is either on 11th or 18th April 2014. The reason why it is so far away from the today's date is because I want to complete my IPPT first before doing anything to my teeth. I will have to extract a total of 8 tooth, 2 molars 4 premolars and 2 wisdom tooth. The orthodontist is still deciding if I should get rid of the 2 wisdom tooth though. I hope not because losing 8 tooth is not a joke, and god bless me if I can endure the pain. 

That pretty much sums up what I am up to for the past few months. No pain no gain I guess, to a better smile ahead, and an emptier wallet...

Shoe Lacing!

Now Playing - Wild Hearts by The Vamps

If you know me well enough, you will know that I HATE shoes with laces. That's right, those sneakers you often see at converse? Yup I hate them. The reasons why I hate them are pretty straightforward, it's a hassle to tie them and it leaves a ugly bow on your shoes.

See what I mean? Eyesore.

However, hating shoes with laces may be a thing of the past for me now. I got interested into

"Shoe Lacing Art" recently for some unknown reasons and boy I am glad I did. Lacing shoes into awesome patterns can be fun to do instead of the usual dull cross laces. This is what I did to my shoe after some time, it's called the "Zipper Lace". 

It's suppose to look awesome but not really here, but that's probably because my skills are not quite there yet and the lace's color may affect the attractiveness too. And stop, you're probably thinking that the reason my shoes are green is because I'm a vegetarian. NO, it's just happened to be green that's all. Not sure why but so many people have commented about my shoes being green because I'm a vegetarian and stuff. Such Stereotyping. Anyway, there's some other laces I want to try in the future such as the "Checkered Lace", "Bar Lace" and "Spider Web Lace".

I'll probably pick up some different color laces too to spice up my shoe's design. It's quite amazing that shoe lacing can be an art too!

RSAF Air Show 2014

Now Playing - Cruise by Floria Georgia Line feat. Nelly

The biennial Singapore Airshow is here again. It is hosted by RSAF at Changi East Airbase and will be on show from 11th to 14th Feb for invited guests only and 15th to 16th Feb for the public. For the public viewing, tickets are sold at $17 if I am not wrong. Working in the government sector, I've managed to get a pass to visit the show for free! Haha that's another benefit of working in a government agency, the other being iron rice bowl (铁饭碗). 

We were given half day off from our usual working hours to visit this event, how awesome is this? Sadly, there is no parking slot allocated for us since it's mostly for VIPs. So we have to drive to somewhere nearby and park there before taking a taxi into the secluded camp. The first thing I noticed when we reached the show is there's alot of people. Most are not Singaporeans, mostly foreigners with half of them donning their countries military uniforms.

As we went on a weekday, there's only 1 time slot of the dynamic air show and we happened to missed it. Shucks for sure, but there's far more than just the dynamic air show though. There's a exhibition hall which comprises of various companies showcasing their military and aviation products and a static display field full of awesome aircrafts. We went into the exhibition hall first to take a look at what's cool nowadays and viola lots of interesting stuff on display.

Singapore made gun, should be a SAW.

Another Singapore made gun which shoots explosives.

5.56mm rounds! The ones we used for our SAR21 during NS.

Terrex, a armored vehicle used by the Singapore Army.

Moving on, I found a lot of very nice looking models of planes and what not. Not sure how much time they took to scale down a plane to a model with such precision. Perhaps if I had studied design I would understand more on how they did that. But still, it looks cool though.

Airbus 350 model.

Should be a F16 model.

Finally, lets move on to the big guns, the aircraft static display. I can tell you I was overwhelmed by the sheer size of some of the aircrafts. They are seriously damn huge! Well they do display small ones to, some even smaller than my own car lol. Still, it was a very interesting and unique experience to be able to stand under some of the aircraft's turbine.

This aircraft looks huge even from far!!

Ok sir I will take this as my own.

My very own USA cargo aircraft with me!

It has a very big butt hole..

Apache if I am not wrong.

Not sure what aircraft is this.

This trip is a very enriching one as I get to see alot of different aircrafts around the world. If you are a fan of planes, you HAVE to come. Too much stuff for you to see, worth the 17 bucks. If there's any complaints, it's just too damn bloody hot there, prepare an umbrella or something along the line and an extra $10 for the surcharge for taking a cab back home from that secluded area.

Layout

Now Playing - 手掌心 by Della丁噹 (兰陵王 Ending OST)

Hi folks. Someone took my blog layout as a reference. He posted my favorite vegetable and mushroom to express his appreciation and apology for the blatant copy, and so I am dedicating the following pictures to my dear friend for his efforts. Happy lunar new year btw.

For you and your bro Mr Ang.

新年

Now Playing - 手掌心 by Della丁噹 (兰陵王 Ending OST)

新年來了! In a blink of an eye, another year had passed. Getting older day by day had made me realised that time is precious. So what have I been doing during the first day of the lunar new year? Celebrating with my family and friends! My father bought a pot of 盆菜 and one plate of 鱼生 to celebrate. It was from Lingzhi restaurant and wasn't cheap at all, about $200+. Guess what though, it's all vegetarian! Damn sedap la, well of course it is since it cost so much.

 盆菜 100% vegetarian.

100% vegetarian, looks cool eh.

Somehow the money was well spent, since we can get together and celebrate the festive season together. Times flies, even my nephew is 7 years old now and already in Primary 1. Gosh, I am really getting old now haha. What does that mean though? Time to grow up I guess. Starting saving up now for a family in the future. I will try to not be a spendthrift anymore, unless I strike toto haha. My millionaire dream still applies, though I had a big hole in my pocket now. The hole will be bigger after my braces, and speaking of braces, I kept delaying it omgosh. It's going into my teeth after CNY no matter what! No more reason to postpone it. 

Naughty Marvin trying to keep his cool with my cousin kidnapping him.

Cheeky little monster.

I did took a few photos with the help of my sister. Damn those sunburns around my eyes, got them for some stupid parade rehearsals. I'm already quite dark with all the swimming but it's much worse now lol. I think I will be able to blend in the dark sooner or later if  this keeps up. One of my colleague even said that I no
沖涼.

Finally, my Lunar New Year resolution is to get fitter so that I will be able to look better I guess? And well save up more money for Lasik to get rid of my glasses. Oh, and to be more careful when driving now! With this, I'll end this post with a 新年快乐!

Downturn Luck

Now Playing - 穩穩的幸福 by 陳奕迅 

A new year it may be, a troubled soul it may seemed. 

I had hoped that 2014 will be a good year, but it seems pretty bad so far. Not a pessimist usually, but seriously so many bad things happened in the short span of 4 weeks. Dropped camera, car crash, getting sick again and arrowed for some COC parade again. Crushed a lizard accidentally, knee problems, when will good things start to roll into my life again?

Am I born unlucky or something? I think i need lots of lucky clover to neutralize my bad luck. Still it ain't gonna bring me down, just gotta keep moving. Bring it on bad luck.

Heart Pain

Now Playing - Broken Hearted by Karmin

Argh, what an unfortunate sight! My car kissed the wall when I tried to make a u-turn at a tight corner at Marina Square's carpark yesterday. Waited for almost 40 minutes and still no parking lot. Sheer anger got the better of me and the reward for being reckless is this, 1 big dent on my front bumper even though it's only a slight touch against the wall.

Called a workshop and they quoted me $50 for dent fixture and $80 for spraying half of my bumper, which totaled up to $130. Oh well, a lesson learnt, don't get anger get over your head and be more careful in the future ):

Thunder

Now Playing - Thunder by Jessie J

“Shrouded in the black thunderheads the distant lightning glowed mutely like welding seen through foundry smoke. As if repairs were under way at some flawed place n the iron dark of the world” 

Thunder is the epitome of fear for most children. When I was young, I would cower in fear whenever there's a thunderstorm approaching. I had enough though, determined to face it like a real man (or boy). With half of my heart filled with determination and the other half filled with doubt, I stood before the upcoming storm, like a brave warrior defying the rulers of heaven. 

Bang, the sky roared like a majestic lion. I started to regret my decision and wanted to back out. A part of me pulled me back while another part of me tried to get me to safety. It was a battle within me, a clash of titans ... in me. However, as the thunder goes on and on, I got more accustomed to the sound. The storm had finally stopped. It was all over, I had won. I had successfully reigned my fear. It feels good, to be able to conquer one of my greatest fear and not succumb into darkness. This is the first step of getting out of my comfort zone and starting exploring. 

As I grew older, getting out of the comfort zone was too bothersome. I started to get lazier and take things for granted. Fast forward till this day, I have been nuaing for too long, leading a monotonous life. No more of this bullshit though, since I've pledged to get rid of bad habits and explore more of what is outside of my comfort zone. Getting braces, butterfly style in swimming and learning basic piano is what is on my mind right now for the year. I'm sure it will yield sweet results. 

Some things are better left untouched for the moment, I'm sure things will get going after awhile. I have this bad habit of thinking too much which led to complicating myself in a lot of situation where I have no clue what's right and what's wrong. 

Some of which happen is the incident whereby I had forgotten to setup tables for one of the supervisor of the other sub department when I had promised him to. I had to attend some important matters that day which led to me forgetting all about it and I kind of feel bad of myself. Even though he's not really angry, I'm not sure how to face him in the future though. I'm sure I'm thinking too much. There's also another incident in which I've found a gem behind my secondary school. Thinking there's more underneath, I started digging and to my dismay there's nothing there. By then, I was way too deep in the hole and it was so so difficult to get out. I was covered in dirt and got scoldings from supervisors. I should not have think so much and just walk away in the first place.

So, it's a new year. Time to think simple and start in small steps for my conquest whereby I will expand my comfort zone by trying out more new stuff. I hope it will be a fruitful year for me, don't think so much and stay awesome as always.

Thunder

I'm a red and fragile rose
Won't grow in the dark alone
Take me there cause I need to find the light

I hate that I'm scared of this
But you believe so I'll take the risk
Hold me and tell me I'm alright

Now I'm falling down
You lift me up to the clouds
Yes, I'm falling down
You lift me up Yea!

You make my hands shake
I watch the glass break
Around my guarded heart tonight
This ain't no mistake
You make my earth quake
You feel like thunder in the sky
Like thunder, thunder, thunder (oh oh)
Thunder, thunder, thunder
Like thunder, thunder, thunder (oh oh oh oh)
You feel like thunder in the sky

Broke free, saw an open road
Footsteps lead me to your soul
Now I run with a home to go to

Never thought I'd be this happy
If you asking yes you have me
How you change my thoughts, you'll never know

So when you're falling down
I'll lift you up to the clouds
Yes, when you're falling down
I'll lift you up yea!

You make my hands shake
I watch the glass break
Around my guarded heart tonight
This ain't no mistake
You make my earth quake
You feel like thunder in the sky
Like thunder, thunder, thunder (oh oh)
Thunder, thunder, thunder
Like thunder, thunder, thunder (oh oh oh oh)
You feel like thunder in the sky

I was broken and starting to think that I'm should be ashamed
Trebling and nervous and naked feeling afraid
Then you came and told me and showed to fight through the rain
Fight through the rain, to fight through the rain
Yea yea yea

You make my hands shake
I watch the glass break
Around my guarded heart tonight
This ain't no mistake
You make my earth quake
You feel like thunder in the sky
Like thunder, thunder, thunder (oh oh)
Thunder, thunder, thunder
Like thunder, thunder, thunder (oh oh oh oh)
You feel like thunder in the sky